The fault of our stars

It's a beautiful story, a great film and wonderful casting with all the great performance.
I bought the novel and I'm almost finished in a day.

Though it's not cancer which made me fragile, i face relationships with family and friends, i found myself hard to bond with people and be true connected.
My mother said it was the attitude when i talk to people and my family, and family order in Chinese tradition. I tried to find the source of my insecurity, because it has become a barrier in my relationship and I found it hard to live with that.
My friends told me that I have to live with my insecure, balance it and let it become a part of me. I think I just don't know how to recognize the way i am.

all the worries i have and all the dreams i have are built on the reality now where i live, i eat, i drink, with which i brush my teeth, where i shower, etc. it's all based on what my mom had provided for my and my brother.
I have always forgot to thank my mother for all of this. but throughout this day that i wish to move out for a year. i want to try to make my own living by myself. I just want to try. I wish it to be good, difficult, full of challenge, and I shall make it through.


Mom, although this is the day of fathers, I still give you my respect and my solute to the one who raised me, fed me, educated me, and bring me to life.

I'm sorry and I'm grateful.